What I Was Thinking - When Tom Punched Me

When Tom punched me, I knew i was being abused. I was dumb for not reacting but i couldn't have risked everything i was being given. Tom was a wealthy man, he spoiled me and showered me with gifts. That's why i loved him so much. It was either take the pain and keep the gifts, or fight back and lose everything. I could always get what I wanted from Tom. I could throw lavish parties at the apartment he owned and even buy puppies off the street. Whenever he abused me, I would always think about everything i would be throwing away if i left him. I couldn't get any of that lavish life from George. I realized that my eyes were bigger than my heart and I had lost my sense of what was right. I was also scared because Tom had so much control over me. When he hit me, I felt like he was betraying me. After all the love i had given him, he was treating me like trash. All I had done was say a woman's name. Saying her name made me feel like i had power over him. He was mad and i didn't think he could stop me, but before i knew it there was blood gushing from my face. He was allowed to cheat on her but then was defending her name. I was humiliated. He embarrassed me in front of all of our guests. I wanted to hate him but my mind kept telling me not to. I was afraid that if I fought back, he would leave me for another woman. Tom was the man in charge of our relationship, it was either his way or the highway. I had never thought of Tom as an abusive man, but it was at that moment that i realized he wasn't as sweet as he seemed. I realized that i needed to put my guard up, Tom was not to be trusted. At any second he could end our relationship.